The "what-ifs"

Lately I have been thinking about "what-if" we moved to San Diego for a couple of years. Definitely not something permanent. Just something to further my career and to get Marc a stable job until the economy gets better here. I know the economy is not any better out there but we definitely would have jobs. My brother-in-law owns an accounting firm and I could work for him and get great experience. And our old boss from one of the casinos is now running a casino out there. He would definitely have a job. But I know we are truly better off staying put b/c the only thing that would be better out there would be jobs (and the weather of course). 

Marc would LOVE to be back out there but it does not feel like home to me. We don't have much family or friends in our immediate area but within an hour- we have both of our families and friends. I just wished we had a bigger support system down here. I couldn't imagine being in a place where we only knew a few people. We would miss my nieces and nephew growing up, family parties, vacations, holidays... 

I feel so torn- a few years out west to hopefully make our lives better in the long run vs. being away from "home". I wish I had the guts to do it but I know deep down it would take something big for me to take the leap. I just wish something would change around here. I know when the time is right something will happen...